cerita kurus duduk mengangkang

Tajuk entry yg agak kasar huh? Hahaha. Fhm tak mksud nye tu? well kite dah terbiasa sgt dgn ungkapan, "aku nak kurus..aku nak slim..wah aku dah gemuk..aku nak diet".. dan sebagainya smpai kite dah naik bosan kan? hehe aku pun bosan dowh, kdg2 bosan dgn diri sendiri yg nak kurus tp hanya duduk mengangkang, mengangkang utk ape aku tak pasti, as expected, i've gained weight - dah semestinya akan naik pun sbb duduk umah dgn activity mkn tdo, ade pun kerja mengemas yg tak berat tu menyumbang kpd kenaikan bdn aku, hihi ;p aku mmg selalu nk ke Gym, moreover, dekat umah aku hanya 1 exercises equipment, basikal. Its not enough. So aku hangkut cousins ku n pegi Ratu spa, dekat area kch jgk.. sgt affordable. N yeah, aku selamat mjd member spa tu buat selamanya hehe :) seronok kan? well atleast aku ada usaha nk maintain body wpun bdn ni takdela berat mana.. ade org lg berat lg mls, confident sgt "kurus" pdahal lemak tepu terkumpul merata2. Biarlah org nk ckp aku terlampau obses dgn stuffs mcm ni, but aku buat utk diri sendiri, boost self asteem, itu plg penting. Masa kat shah alam aku tak kisah jogging sendirian kt tasik, sbb aku tau aku akan berpuas hati dgn hasilnya apabila level sugar, colestrol and BP semua less than 4 with bmi 20 over 25 :) Thats satisfaction! jgn smpai dah berpenyakit baru nk ambil langkah, prevention is better than cure. Always remember.

Living as a girl, makes me feel precious.. ramai nk jd perempuan, sanggup berhabis.. Why? But its okay, b what you want to be.. bg ak, tak semestinya kecatikan itu subjektif, that is why org sentiasa tak berpuas hati dgn anugerah masing-masing, sedar tak korang? We are all actually gifted? Kalau kite rasa kita hodoh tang mulut, kita cantik tang mata .. n so on. Berusia awal 20an, krisis kecatikan pasti berlaku, why? Sbb kita duduk dgn org do sekeliling kita.. we observe we see we watch. Aku cantik, kau cantik, Tuhan bg sama rata .. ada orang di anugerahi dgn wajah yg betul cantik, dlm gambar cantik, kat luar apatah lg.. but ade jugak yg dianugerahi dgn yg sebaliknya.. opposite dr apa yg aku just mentioned. Kita ada rasa cemburu, why? Bcuz we are human. Bila tgk org lain yg lg cantik kita akan cemburu n nakkkk .. jd mcm mereka. What for? Aku tak pandai nk keluarkan theory sendiri bcuz people akan anggap ini just theory sendiri. As for instance, Korean girls & guys, ramai yg adore mereka kan? Sbb mereka comel, hensem, hidung teratur, mulut terbentuk .. mata bundar ala2 sepet yg kiut .. tp semuanya fake, mekap & surgery – itu kekuatan mereka. Sbb mereka pun mcm kita, nk jd cantik drpd sebelumnya, Cuma bezanya kita, lebih bersyukur dgn apa yg ada pd diri sendiri wpun perasaan nk cantik tu mmg sentiasa akan kekal dlm diri kita .. yg hitam nk jd putih, yg lurus nk jd kerinting .. yg gemuk nk kurus .. kita berlumba-lumba ke arah kecantikan .. kita expose apa yg ada pd diri kita.. semua tu akan buat kita rasa happy, gf nk jd cantik utk bf, wife - husband. Kita struggling! What for? Menyakitkan diri? Minda tersiksa? Sentiasa memikirkan kecatikan yg sememangnya kita mmg dah ada tu? Determination nk jd cantik, berlawan-lawan, terikut-ikut.. kita sedih dgn diri sendiri .. semua tu menyiksakan. Lelaki.. yeah susah nk jumpa laki yg betul terima diri kita seadanya. Kalau wujud pun laki mcmtu, bolehla masuk dlm kalangan laki BAIK. Ade ke? Hehe. Even bf aku pun.. tipulah kalau tak suka kalau aku kurus. Hahah. Ade aku kesah? Aku tau aku cantik, kalau aku bkn taste die pun lama-kelamaan, aku akan jd taste org lain. Ingat, jgn jadi BODOH girls.

Tgk vid ni by Mat Luthfi , mmg byk kesedaran timbul.



Njoy :)

Aku tak tau lah cane nk update entry aku kali ni. HAHAHA. Sbb dah byk sgt bnde happened lately, ada bnde yg kita tak boleh terima, ada benda yg kite force diri sendiri utk menerima – bolehkah semua tu kite anggap ketentuan? Kalau dah bende tu kite sendiri yg sbbkan jd camtu? Korang phm tak? Hahaha. Tak fhm lantakla ea.. Alhamdulillah aku mudah menerima ketentuan wpun tak best lansung. I’m moving on. Dgn otak yg bcelaru, akal ke barat timur.. tunggang langgang. Tak pasti, dan kalau boleh nak terus mara, tinggal 1 sem je min sabar lah okay. Mcm tu lah hari2. Oh yah, aku dah boleh on9 dgn bahagia nya. Mgkin ada hikmah aku tak boleh on9 kejap aritu kot, huhu.. apa ko rasa skrg min? Ko suka merepek? Hah mmg pun ko suka merepek, bkn sbb aku masscom la.. sbb aku mmg dilahirkan dgn mulut popcorn.. Cuma aku tak se-creative MAT LUTHFI. Hahaha, I love this guy, he’s awesome. BIG BIG TIME. Jrg aku boleh gelak berdekah2 dgn laki ni, tp tgk vid die pun dah cukup mceriakan hari aku. Ngeh3. Ade pulak masa mamat ni nak produced such amazing … erm, boleh kite describe as product? HAHA maybe utk suka2 lah kot.. well aku teringin nak ade bakat mcmtu and letak kat youtube, nak entertain org? lgpun aku ni bknlah CANTIK mana nk dpn CAMERA, tak photogenic la katakan. hihi, so malulah nk malukan diri sendiri. huhu.. Maka since then, lekatla aku kat page “I want nobody nobody but hang” setiap masa, aku mmg like sgt laki yg suka buat gelak ni, ops ye, bkn sweet talker okay, LOSER... hahaha. Tp kalau aku la kan, oleh kerana aku bsifat menyampah sket dgn KEBANYAKKAN artis-artis msia, filem2 msia, aku akan buat vid yg kritik group tu.. tp malangya aku takde peluang lg.. so medium blog ni ok la kot.. wpun tak siapa nk baca sgt kan.. Entah ak segan nk promote blog cikai ni kat social networking mcm org lain, cane korang boleh confident sgt promote kat FB ea? Ajar aku puhlizz J nanti org ckp – erk apelah blog die ni tak best lansung, tak mbina la ape kan.. malu lah. Aku dah lama simpan perasaan nak mengutuk apa yg ade kt msia skrg ni, antaranya :

Recently watched / seen hohohohoho

Isu Gambit yg ckp vid prima yin adalah utk pasaran antarabangsa – entahlaa.. muka hensem tp sygnya BODOH. HAHA. Bkn ape ak ckp camtu, aku takkan bercakap soal norma-norma serta nilai2 murni malay society yg ade kt msia ni sbb kat msia ni ade semua bangsa, cina.. india.. sabah & Sarawak, sbb ape aku ckp camtu – zaman skrg ni ssh kite nak jumpa org minda 80an, semua otak dah open, exposed dgn apa yg ade kt tv, lg2 those yg duduk kl.. Ah tak pyh ckp kl la.. mana-mana tempat pun sama janji minda boleh, willing utk menerima perubahan.. mmg bagus usaha Gambit ni nk kembangkan bakat, err ade bakat ke.. even aku pun tak penah tgk die blakon huhuhu .. okayla.. mybe die nak bwk music clip die tu utk pasaran antarabangsa which is mmg bagus kalau nak berjaya, sampai bila nak berada di takuk yg lama, produced music clip sopan santun di zaman ni, aku pelik knp yg mmg dah sedia ada seksi tu org tak bising pulak J knp keluarnya music clip Gambit org nak bising? Tu aku pelik. Sbb Prema Yin pakai lingerie? Heheheh. Kelakar jugak mentality org msia skrg ni.. nak tegur pun biar melengkapi skop2 lain jugak. Tp knp aku ckp Gambit bodoh? Sbb die jawab soalan mcm takde otak. HAHA. Maki blogger pulak tu.. wey tanpa fans, ko tak kemana la.. harapkan muka je tp mulut sikit punya loser.. kekwat sial artis skrg. Setiap kenyataan ko akan bg impak besar kat kerjaya ko sendiri. Bongok. Haha.

Isu Fatimah Juling & Halimah Jongang - @_@ aku tak tau lah, speechless pun ade jugak. Aku bkn takde kwn2 jongang bahkan aku ada sepupu yg juling pun. Agaknya producer cikai kt Msia ni dah kehabisan idea nak produce drama-drama BAGUS. Tak pyh jd sebagus Khir Rahman, hampir-hampir bagus pun boleh diterima, ni ape keluar drama-drama gedik mcm Ana Lulu – lakonan Nora Danish n blablabla. Stop talking like 4 years old kid. U looked stupid. Sumpah aku mcm nk sepak. Drama Ana Lulu kat tv3 every Wednesday Jam 9-10 tu betul membuang masa org nk tgk. Sapa suke drama ni angkat jari kaki? Takde kan? Mcm TAHI je drama ni. Aku rasa kalau tak tgk ctr melayu sampai bila-bila pun takpelah, sbb mmg bimbooo kot. Aku tak fhm knp mesti artis-artis serta pelakon2 semua n ink kene acting bodoh mcmtu, kiut ke? Tp gua totap salute FASHA SANDA. Love you akaks. Hihi. Go to hell dgn her social life, semua org ada masa sendiri. Siapa kita nak judge org tu bitch ke baik ke solehah ke…n aku harap drama Ana Lulu ni habis cepat sket tlglah. Aku pun nak tgk tv okeh!

dah habis modal.

AF – Hazama.. Hah sapa? Hazama? Aku teringat masa kau tgk tv dgn abg aku then aku tertekan chanel Ria, masa tu konsert AF, so nk tgkla kojap kan… “Ya MasyaAllah, Pondan tua mana ni..” – Abg. Sedap aku gelak. Aku tak nafikan aku suka tgk Af jugak.. yep pnh pergi konsert last year kat bukit Jalil, * syahir punya season* Boleh blah lg la masa ni sbb semua tak mcm pondah n Nampak mcm sedar diri n humble.. tp skrg? Hazama ni aku dgr suara die takla sedap mana, sedap lg jiran aku nyanyi dlm jamban, outfit pun ……… mak ai takde perunding imej ke dorang ni? Mcm penyanyi kelab mlm je aku tgk ha. Dgn liplap sana sini. Aduh tgkla quality product Msia. Tak semenggah.

p/s – aku suka HAFIZ. J

aku sekarang benci Nabil sbb kes cium die – baru keluar kpg ke Nabil? Heheh

Aku benci JAMBU– sbb aku rasa lawak bodoh. <--- PEMBETULAN, BKN SEPAH TP JAMBU

Aku suka Zizan – bkn sbb die comel, comel lg Mat Luthfi, tp sbb die mmg LAWAK tahap cipan

Aku dah tak suka sgt Shah Jaszle *tak tau eja – die mcm .. erk.. entah.

Aku rasa pemergian Allahyarham Pak Uda benar2 adalah 1 kehilangan besar selepas M.Rajoli , sbb pelakon senior ni la memeriahkan industry.

Aku 55% suka Aaron Aziz – sbb die mmg actor yg boleh berlakon. Adi Putra pun.

Aku benci KRU sbb ciplak idea barat, but in a way yg aku boost spirit industry jd lebih better. Cuma tak perlulah Apek jd pelakon utama dah, sbb Nampak bodoh / murah sgtlaaa..

Tak perlulah asyik Sam je berlakon – BOSAN.

Aku rasa Yusof Haslam berbakat besar – semua org setuju kan? Dahla comel. Ergh tak tahan aku.<----- SEBENARNYA SYAMSUL HASLAM

Aku harap Malaysia akan keluar dgn idea baru yg takde niat nk menciplak.. so takdelah mcm Msian Idol yg dah ghaib, Show down yg ala2 so you think you can dance, Siri Anita yg ala-ala Oprah Winfrey, Sehati berdansa yg ala-ala Dancing with the star.. Gula-gula & 24:7 yg ala-ala Kpop, Alyah yg ala-ala Lady Gaga version melayu, Joe Malique yg ala-ala JayZ. HARHARHAR. Roda Impian yg ala-ala Wheel of fortune.. Who wants to be a millionaire version Malaysia, Masterchef Msia, Biggest Loser Msia, One Nation Emcees yg ala-ala The black eye peas – n byk lg – sbb spt yg kite dah sedia maklum – Nmpk sgt HANGAT-HANGAT TAHIKKK AYAM :)

aku sebenarnya dah penat menaip – haha. So nanti kalau aku gatal nk kutuk lg aku sambung k :)

"setiap seorang dpd kita ada zaman b*bi sendiri, you ade zaman b*bi u ngn b*bi u, i pun mcm tu.. cuma i lg teruk terkena dpd u..mungkin ni takdir, i kena jumpa & terkena dgn die dulu sebelum i jumpa you, Tuhan nak kite belajar, kalau i tak jumpa die, n belajar dr pengalaman dulu, i takkan jd mcm ni skrg, i takkan syg u mcm ni.." - just teringat ayat ni. It makes me smile :) yes betul, pengalaman yg lampau byk mengajar kite kan. Utk jd diri kite skrg. Setiap org ade kesilapan masing2, zaman masing, bak kata die, "zaman babi" masing2, tak guna marah @ingat benda lama, sbb dah nama pun cerita lama, buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih. Semoga bahagia dgn kehidupan masing. Dan progress ak sendiri? ahaaa, byk kot.. lebih rileks & tak marah2 sgt. Not easily get mad dlm bahasa mudahnya. Kata mak, " mak pun tgk die byk bersabar dgn kerenah kau...belajar tolak-ansur kalau kau nak hubungan kekal lama..mak suka dia," - tq mak! Bg ak restu keluarga sgt penting, ak tak penah tgk mak/bpk ak percayakan kwn2 ak mcm mak ak percayakan die. Asked him to take care of me, called him n asked my condition (haritu sakit) , JAga baby ak (viva 1609 syg hihi :p) Pandai ambil hati family, mmg kena dgn kehidupan ak. N alhamdulillah, kedua2 family merestui :) *teringat bila die citer kt ak yg dulu mak die tak suka ex die, she was just sayin, " mak tak suke die..", kalau ak skrg, bkn main lg mak die ngn ak.. syukur. Mak tau apa yg terbaik utk anakny. Ak bknlah yg terbaik, tp ak sedang ke arah memperbaiki diri, utk jd yg terbaik. Melangkah ke alam dewasa mmg sukar, tp semua tu akan lebih mematangkan diri, berfikir di luar kotak. Belajar bertenang bcuz thats si NOT ME. back then, ak kelakar bila teringat pilihan masa dulu. "zaman babi" ak. haha.

Gudnite.

.Loving you, its easy cuz ur beautiful.




I love the look in your eyes when you tell me you love me



it hasn't been long since I last saw you my dear,
But to me it feels as long as five hundred year.



To see your smile is to see the divine :)



I love that you get along with my family and friend

I love the fact that when I'm around you I can be myself and not worry
about what you may think of me, because I know you love me for who I am.

No matter what my faults may be.

..hearing you tell me your stories, you could tell them to me a thousand
times, and I will never get tired of them, because they are a part of you, AND IT HAPPENED EVERY DAY, EVERY NIGHT. HAHAHAHA :D

thanks for everything syg

♥

..has made my life so beautiful.

♥

kelakar bila kita break up, ada org lain yg try nk masuk line kan.. hahaha. You flirt with my boyfriend again BITCH i'll tear your F*KING head OFF!!!- ko tu ibarat drive thru sahaja. Gatal.

:)

I'm missing him. Every single little things that we did. i just.. miss him so so so much.

Just finished cooking our dish for today, or actually 1 of our dishes today besides than fish, *daddy didnt cook it yet, its too early he said, so he's just happily spending his free time on lounging on sofa n listening to lite * easy. What a day haa pak.. usually its difficult for my dad to believe in sumone's ability to cook, as he always told us that he's a good cook! Yah its true. haha. Not that my mum dont know how to cook well but she's just defeated by my dad's mouth! haha fierce mouth, "not a big deal," mum said :) kerenah org tua kan? haha. so by letting me cooked today is sumthing extra ordinary, has happened to my dad, well actually its just a simple dish. so tadaaaa! i've done my terung masak sambal! the sambal made from udang kering, chili and oyster sauce. so its quite ez. hahahahaha. hey tp jgn pandang rendah! I can cook, my bf loves to eat my daging masak kicap. hahahahaha.

i was stunned when i saw this vid clip on you tube! Ak tak tau lansung psl bnde ni altho ak one of the greatest pengkrtik ttp artis2 Msia. hahaha. Oh my! shah jaszle?! what r u doin here baby? u should come n see me :DD dpd apa yg ak dpt tau, this terrible vid clip adalah directed by Gambit Saifullah, Oh my .. another sizzling msian actor.. wrong step Gambit, u r so wrong this time. Without thinkin about what the audience akan fikir? Oh u made a wrong decision :) look Gambit, we are not 100% blaming u for producing such "incredible" music clip, but do realize , this is MALAYSIA. Kita amalkan budaya timur wey :) kau terpelajar kan? Kalau tak takdelah duk speaking london je kat tweeter kan? ngeh3. its not cool at all gambit! Kau tu public figure. Enough said. By producing this kind of product, u r ruining ur own carrier, cuba fikir betul2, ada byk music clip dr barat yg d-banned dr memasuki msia, kalau yg mcm ni? well unless u have the edited version la kan :) Jgnla mrh org bg teguran.. People are going to talk about you, you can't stop that..You just have to be that strong person and know who you are so that stuff just bounces off :)

p/s ; tak faham knp ppuan tu harus mendedahkan bhagian boobs sebelah kiri, hihi.. ur assets is not that hot .. it is more to .. sumthing like we call - effin creepy. hahahaha. N u dont have to dress like a hooker to get the attention from the listeners bcuz here in msia, we love to see sumone like Ana Raffali n yuna to be in a music clips. U r not lady gaga to wear that goldy ugly outfit n u r not beyonce say to wear that lingerie like she did in Halo, plus she have a clean armpit though :) luckily u have a powerful voice, n luckily u r not muslim as well. so its up to her, just sumtimes we need to consider about so many aspects, including the moral aspects as a singer who wish to stay longer in this industry. although u r not muslim, wear sumthing nice to see. U r good song writer, n u can go far with that amazing talent.

Im ski-ing! hihi =) yeah ski-ing in my BED! haha seronok bgn lambat lg, Okay whats the topic for today? Todays topic is -- (read like teacher in class yap) -- sum sort of JEALOUSY! hihi. Ramai kan pen-jeles kat dunia yg fana ni? Why jealousy happen? Where does it come from? haa. kene tau semue ni, JGN TAHU JELES SAJAHA without knowing why this fuck little thing dtg kpd anda. kan? =)

dpd sumber yg sgt d- trusted, well ak typing ni pun bkn membabi buta mcm sesetengah org, yg buat teori, idealogi, andaian sendiri tanpa buat sum research, ecewah. Google beb google.

If whatever is going on within us that brings up jealousy continues to happen over and over it because of one of two things:

1) Something really is going on in your relationship that needs to be changed, addressed or stopped or

2) You have the belief that whatever you're fearing will happen in your relationship and life will actually happen.

That's it. Nothing else.

ha itu in a relationship, what about kalau ianya berlaku among sesama friend list di Facebook? haha awat? Terasa ka? aeih jgnla cenggitew, rileks, at least bkn you sorg je terasa, ramai lg.. haha. Senang betul nak tgk activity sindir-menyindir d fb.. whats going on? are u really unhappy with ur life? Dah bosan sgt ka? KESIAN. Hidup a alam maya, most of the people tersalah anggap, mencampur-adukkan apa yg harus dibebelkan d alam fb dgn alam nyata, tak berani melalak kt dpn, melalak kt fb pun jdlah... yah its undeniable, ak pun kdg2 mcm tu.. tp tu lah, malas nk amek pusing. Sampai bila nak membebel cik kak? mak cik? abg2 pakcik2 ni krg sket membebel mengenai life org lain d fb.. ni ha kakak2 makcik2 kepochi ni.. ada yg dah berlaki beranak pinak pun active lg! haha weh, bkn nak kata org dah berkeluarga ni kene jd pasif bersosial d fb, yelah ak admit, fb mmg best.. dpt tgk kerenah org, stalk sana sini.. tp.. adalah limit nya. Jgnla sampai laki kebulur kat umah bini sibuk b'fb? ye dak? hahaaa. Bkn apa.. ramai sgt dah ak tgk.. smpai status nk berak pun naik.. c'monla.. r u twenty's? no wonder la.. ur brains doesnt fully develop lg. haha. adalah one of my friends, duk maki2 hamun seekor mawas yg dipercayai buat onar d fb ny, maka beliau dgn bangga nya me- removed si polan itu. Maybe bg kwn ak ni, by removing that creature, the problem will solve, tp bkn bg ak.. ak lebih seronok membiarkan org lain melalak sbb .. ko nak peduli ape dow? tu page die, skati die la taruk ape kan? haih not a big deal la.. kite pun boleh, tp apa hasilnya? menambahkan haters mcm Malaysia Kpop Wanabe - Gula-gula plak. haha, nak disamakan mcm tu? Ohh mintak simpang. So biarlah org nk ckp ape, okay? Buat bodoh saja dong. melalak smpai anak tekak hilang. Silakan :) - Jealousy will eat u alive.

Overcoming jealousy is possible and you can do it.

More later on overcoming jealousy...

Until then,

Have a great day,

Hello long time no see kan? Dah berhabuk blog cikai ni (common word used by blogger - so ak pun nak tiru la cenggiteww hihi) Baiklah! Dah pukul 3 n ak still cant sleep, not even have the intention pun utk tdo since 2 3 hari ni ak sgt njoy being along at home - bapak ak kerja 13 jam - additional 1 hour sbb die ulang alik ke tmpt kerja yg sgt jauh. N mak - meeting d Miri. Well semua itu perkara kecik, small matter the pieces bg ak yg mmg dah biasa ditinggalkan sjk kicik. Hu sedih kan? Masa kecik sedihla beb, dah besar seronok ape.. leh tgk tv lama2, mandi ptg, masak ape je kat dapo.. tdo tghari n so on. Yeah its hard to find a suitable time when u have a pack schedule everyday - in Shah Alam, so 4 months at home i guess must be fulfilled with sumthing -- erm extraordinary? Err i mean sumthing yg kita rarely buat masa kat Shah Alam. Phew at home ye - im dying of boredom. Mcm ape kan? td kate best - well tak semua best at home.. need to clean all the dishes, mess made by cats n kittens. adoyai. when will these things will stop? Having a cats at home is often disturbing my mood lah =.=' tp kalau depa takdak bosan jugak. Takde nak disepak for example? Joking :p my family n i went to Kl last week.. abg dtg from Poland n spent 10 days here in Kch, then 31th tu balik Poland, Oh yah! He bought a cool stuffs for me - sumthing that i "craved" for so long ---------- iPad!!! Its Ipad 2. Then sum shirts. Tq bro - u r the best! Hihi * just bcuz he had bought me iPad 2 ! Hehehe. Sepanjang 7 days in kl, i met hubby - tried so hard to find a way to meet him. Hahaha. Tq for helping me with the iPad things n yedayeda. Not to be forgotten tq for helping me with the visa.. n jyeah, im enjoying the sims that we had installed. Hihi tq baby. back from Kl, next day terus ke bintulu for Amy's wedding. Yeah tahniah cuzzie! Wah sungguh tak sangka die dah kahwin. Hihi, ko ingat kau muda min? Ye muda lagi ! No jgn perasannnn! Eh ape?! Ak 17 tahun lah! Lek lu sap kok lu. Bloop bloop. here sum of the pictures taken during im in kl & wedding & 2 days in Bintulu. What a great moments.