Keinginan.Kehendak.kemahuan.
Bengang.cemburu.jeles.
kurus.gemuk.cicak.badak.
Aku manusia.Hina.
Aku cantik.
"Cantik"
Seharusnya begitu.
Aku senyum.Aku tawa.
aku nangis.aku benci.
Sendat.Tahan.
"cantik","cantik", "cantik"
Semua suka.
Semua pandang.
Keinginan.Kehendak.kemahuan.
Aku pandang sana.
Aku pandang sini.
Aku menangis.
Tangis dalam hati.
Sesungguhnya aku mahu.
Jadi seperti mereka.
Bagai merak penuh bangga.
Menjerit.Dalam senyuman.
penuh kepalsuan.

Another random cool pic :)
I think this is damn cool seriously.

Your attempt of BEING COOL has failed. SORRY.

Updated Stories.
Hehehehe :p

life in Shah Alam, penuh suka duka. Chewah! Takdela duka sgt, sbb tiap kali berduka je ade "ubat" nya :) lagi 1, i've learned that whenever problem that we might need to face, never take things for granted and DO NOT ACCUSE OTHERS. Thats the key to ensure that the problem wouldnt become more bigger, pasal asaimen & Class. Shit gile malas duh nak pg class!!!! Bukan sbb lectures yg bosan but desire nak tido tuh dah manipulate ak. Mak tolongla!!! Damnit dgn asaimen yg tak pnh nak stop dpd melimpah ruah, mcm banjir yg membanjiri Pakistan. Sumtimes dah mls nk pk soal asaimen sbb tau tak which subject to begin. Kehkehkeh :) Tapi yg best nya our class's unity becoming stronger each days. Except the only group which is still remain to be in a tribes lived. What to do? Itu pilihan dorg. Maybe for them, being frenly with others means "awkward"? Who knows? Well itu hak semua org kan? :) Pastu sekarang dah pun ade Mc221 3c punye group class. Best! Thanks Guys sbb sporting? hehe.

mc221 Group Same outfit. Budak ni meniru ak :p

Life kat blok 6, rumah bernombor 604 : Mcm biase, Full with laugh. Normally ak habiskan masa kat umah several hours b4 keluar beronggeng ngn Suami yg terchenta. :) Sekarang rumah ktorg dah ade katil! Even katil owner rumah cilok dr hostel mane tah. Erk. Dah hujung sem, lg 3 minggu nak balik baru owner ingat kat ktorg. Watthahampeh. Huhu. Tapi takpe, drpd tak hengat lansung?? Cuma agak kesakitan ketulangan sbb tilam nipis, so boleh rase tulang rangka ku di katil. Hwa! Kan best kalau ade tilam cam kat rumah.. :(

Jogging : yay! after few days waiting for a sunny day ( tp kalau ujan sedap tido ptg masalahnya ;P) finally today cuaca elok!!!! maka aku pun ambik langkah beribu2 dr fact balik umah, tukar baju, ambik kasut then lari dgn girangnya! 3 round.. ehm, maybe other days boleh try improve lg. Skrg mission penting lagi crucial, pagi takmo mkn nasik. Makan Light je. Tanak heavy2. Nti mlm, Jumpe suami mesti selera mkn tak hengatttt! Haish!

Cinta ;)

dulu aku muda
dulu aku mentah
dulu aku ikut
dulu aku suka

cinta.

banyak aku lalui.

cinta bodoh.
cinta bosan.
cinta muda.
cinta hanya utk bersuka-suka

cinta yang hanya utk mendapatkan perhatian.

Kini.

Ak semakin tua
semakin kuat fikiran.
Cinta ku bukan sekadar luaran.
Cinta yg ku harap bukan sebentar.
9 bulan bersama.
jangka masa yg lama.



My Drug <3

KISAH BENAR : NERACA HIDUP

Bile hati tak senang
Bile hati risau
Bile hati menjerit

Tak terkeluar dgn kata-kata
Riak muka menggambarkan semua

Bile hati mulai takut
Bile hati menangis......

Sayang sembuhla.
plan kite byk kan...... nak tgk wayang.... nak pegi camping....... nak makan masak sedap2...

banyak kan sayang...

Banyak ak buat doa..
List down. Jot down. Ak pun down.

Meroyan.
Semua orang ak carik. Damnit dan2 semua taknak angkat call! ( mrh doh org tak angkat call !)

Takpe.. mcm die salu ckp, "usaha itu tangga....." ( ayat tak habis, comel kan? )
ak pun teruskan menggeledah, Phew. Phew. Phew. dan Phew lagi.
Mun. Muaz. Geyam. Linkun
2 nama terakhir tu. - Bye.
2 nama terawal - Thanks. ;)

Sayang angkatla call dinda !
Ohh - syg, i dah boleh balik. Haha"

Makan siap !
Linkun : Oh acot ok, skrg tgh mkn kat seksyen 6.

Tochey Linkun, walaupun ak dah lupe bile ak msg kau. :D

ak tersenyum, mcm ni ha ---> :))))))))) <-------- byk jugak kan? :D Allah. Sembuhkanla kaki bujang senangku. Kurangkanlah sakit di kakinya. Moga dia.. mampu berlari. Mendaki. Blok 6, bernombor 504 dgn laju. Walaupun dengan jalan yg kengkang- seperti biasa

Pendukung watak :

watak utama

Hero : Si pesakit

Walaweyh gemuk. Ko buat ak siksa -____-"""

Hero no 2 ( harap didie tak mengamuk ni AMIN ;) )

watak sampingan : si slow.

err, watak sampingan yg lagi krg bguna : baju hitam membelakangi & Bagi peace ala bajet kiut

TAMMAT

hehe :P

I'm sorry
I don't mean to remember
It's true that I dream less often

I'm not ashamed
Of that long December
Your hand's coming down again

I close my eyes and brace myself
I only noticed your face
No matter what you're gonna build my shell


I'm falling
I'm shedding my skin
But it's not time I'm told
I am aware

Of what you mean by then

I'm only ten years old

I'm done healing

ANAK BANGSA BODOH, NAK KER?


jgn jadi bangsa yg tidak tahu-menahu isu semasa
jgn jadi bangsa yg tidak tahu menilai
jgn jadi bangsa yg hanya tahu melihat
jgn jadi bangsa yg berdiam diri tanpa mampu bertindak
jgn jadi bangsa yg hanya tunduk setelah diperkotak-katikkan
jgn jadi bangsa yg bosan
jgn jadi bangsa yg hanya tahu bersuka-suka
jgn jadi bangsa yg bodoh, tetapi menasihati org

walhal diri sendiri tak tahu apa yg hendak diperkatakan
kerana ianya bukan menjadikan anda dihormati,
tetapi diketawakan.

jgn jadi bangsa yg hanya tahu berbelanja namun tak tahu cara untuk mendapatnya
jgn jadi bangsa yg hanya tahu mengambil langkah berjaga, tetapi tidak cuba mengatasinya
jgn jadi bangsa yg bermentalitikan zaman jahiliah

tolong jgn jadi.......

Jangan jadi anak bangsa yg bodoh.

Boredom

Ok skrg tak sure apa nak buat, Boredom strikes again. Just finished watching The Friday 13th % the Forbidden Secrets. Watching with my family. Of course i need to learn on how to keep my mouth shut, rather than to scream as usual. PHEW. Forbidden secrets is about a poor young lady who suffered a mental disorder after saw her aunt murdered by Sam, That guy is a doctor who treated the lady, the one who changed all the medicine and change the lady's thinking, so that she couldnt remember any of the incident that occurred in her house when she was kid, unfortunately, everything was captured in a video tape, Sam is looking for the tape so that he can hide any evidence, while her mentally ill mum died after smashed the glasses in a bathroom and cut off her own artery.

together with her friend, also a doctor, they revealed the truth about the murder & killed sam in a pool. interesting movie!! ^^

Damn another sexy outfit from Forever 21.





but how far this concept can be done. Corruption. Fraud. Only focuses & completed the high profile cases, small cases that r not "essential" have been excluded. Is that fair enuf for certain parties? fate of the victims r not advocated for years. its weird when we, as an ordinary people watch on tv, ohh yeah, y suddenyl so many cases habe been revealed? ehm! not sure what the true meaning of one of Malaysia. Our country is in a bad condition and there is still much to be improved. Murder here & there. PHEW! 1 Malaysia? means that people and nations should be consolidated into one? Are u sure? Malay, Chinese and Indian, and other ethnic groups in Sabah and Sarawak are also united, free from any violence.

Boredom

could racism exists again?? Or even worst than before

Jangan ingat profesional, wear glasses, highly educated, datukship, well known chap tak akan jadi pembunuh kejam. New and open era, no more penjahat with scar kat muka mcm jln keretapi, rambut panjang tak terurus,well build physical, berjambang and etc. Just be extra cautious....be prepare for the worst.

Muke educated tp actually planned soooo many murder. Wow you great. Mybe die ni blaja cane nak bunuh org mase kat campus dulu. then yg kat sebelah tu could be Ravi, the one who used to beat victims to death and hacked them before burning their bodies. paling tak boleh blah ade pengakuan suspek ni ckp, ade gak mangsa bunuh ni dorg lempar dlm bear cage. EE!

skrg duk ade application kat fb, well biase la fb ni prihatin sket an mcm biase. Sgt nmpk racism di situ. Erm, looks like 13th may will strikes again. Tp nak buat mcm mane? apepun law takkan mampu nak halang org nak bls dendam.

This is not a trash ;)

Best tak best best tak best best tp tak berapa nak best. beraya di Kpg Bpk ak, di Lundu. it takes few hours to reached there. Fuiyoh naek kete Ford Ranger ktorg yg baru. Duno what so special about this car, but its big, so bg ak yg punye taste2 besar n yummy ni, I like it! ngeh3.

Raya without my eldest brother mcm tak bermakna ouh. He's in Poland, working there. Pulanglah abang ibunda merinduimu. It used to be very fun when we was small but nowadays, everyone has grown up kot, sbb tu kene behave. Or else nampak tak sedar diri lah kan. Huhu boring. Skrg baru umur 21 tahun rite? Cane lak agaknya bile dah lg besar nanti kan. Duit raya pun dpt ckit. hwaaa!

Firework bnde yg paling annoying bagi ak. Duno why people loves to play that rubbish. Mcm yg ak salu ckp, Its a trash. Polis dah forbid bende tu but yet still kept on playing ha? Bknkah bodoh perlakuan itu. Kalau org tua yg ade heart problem mesti dah mati. cmon lah, u get nothing when u play firework, its just wasting ur time yet burning ur money. besides, dpt maki hamun dr bpk ak. Phew sakit tu.


Photography During Eid.








Kuching, 14th sept 2010

~ Hari Raya yang.. erm. Best but there is sumthing that bothering me. Yerps its assignments. so many assignment need to be done. Did i mention before whats the task that given by our great lectures? yah kinda funny to remember, those shits and trashes "accompanying" us during our Eid's celebration. All the lectures? Phew, I thought they were extinct :S * during raya jela..dun be too rude mint..* ~kurr

~Eid :) i must say that our family is the greatest among others in Lundu. It is because grandma's house is the only house that can occupied 3.. 4 .. cars at the same time. Hehe what a great moment as we shared so many things together, although there are few of our families failed to return Sarawak this year, Haha sorry sounds cruel.

~ to My Beloved Husband :) And blessed enough for me to have my bf Rahman <3 Ukhti Ukhti Ukhti, if you happen to be reading this, thank you soo much for all that u've done for me. u bring wayy tooo much joy and happiness in my life it's unbelievable.
what you did today was simply perfect :)



~4th Raya : went to Lundu again, arrived from kch at 1030, we did not plan any of the activities on that day. It was happened dramatically accidentally. Harharhar. Oh yeah, actually my fren, Ct Hafizah has planned to meet her Bf, the old time fren of mine, Shawn but didnt tell us. What a monkey. It was sooooo last minute, I panicked the hell outta myself. She texted me at 10.00 am on and picked me up at 10.35 am. Whatta hectic day.

late night trash.

1. facebook. smakin ari makin boring. same old application. Difren people. Notification, buat sakit hati. erk. what should i care for. containing pitchas. chicas. SHITS. annoyed. addictive. hard to let go. forget. wake up. sleep. Facebook, lg influenced from Oprah Winfrey. new vids uploaded. Dah mcm Youtube. 14 years old kids have 2thousands frens in her frenlist. adding people according to their look. appearance. Funny. Make frens. Connecting people.
   

A history of FUCK.

THINGS I DONT GAIVE A FUCK :

1. THE HATERS
2. THE FACKERS
3. PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY KNOW ME
4. AUTHORITY
   
5. THE ONE WHO WANNA BRING YOU DOWN
6. THE LIARS
7. THE UNAPPRECIATIVE PEOPLE
8. THE 2FACED ASSHOLE ( FUCK THOSE PEOPLE, IM SURROUNDED BY 'EM)
9. CHEATERS + DECEIVERS
10. & THE ONE YOU SAY YOU CANT

1. I wish i have this memo and pass it to the bullshitters who parked their car like a bullshits
2. intolerance will be tolerance

shit

There comes a time in life where you to have to let go of all the pointless drama

Heaven :)

SORRY. you FAIL. :)

" I HAD LEARN NOT TO CARE, POT HAD HELPED, AND BOOZE, MAYBE A LITTLE BLOW, WHEN YOU COULD AFFORD IT. NOT SMACK, THOUGH "

-BARRACK OBAMA.



Michelle Rodriguez

I can turn to be a lesbian for her :)

this vid was captured on .. err. i forgot already, during the period where to of us neglected our assignment, switch on the lappy and starts taking pitchas. but unfortunately it was a vid mode. How stupid is that. it is not an extra ordinary vid where we make a sexy dance together or some sort of pool dance or yedayeda, its juz showing u guys how funny our face looks like when we're not realized that the our face have been recorded from the beginning of the ... err...actually from the moment we switch on the lappy -___-"

.DAMNSTUPIDUGLY.

.Workloads.SEXY.Lectures.SHITs.




Indeed.but who cares.

.i felt like the heat of my anger should physically burn him but he only seemed more amused.

.I FLUNKED ANGER MANAGEMENT.
SCREW ME OVER
SUSPENDED IN ANGER